A Year or Two Wont Hurt

I have finally decided not to go home yet for i have to finish some things here..

these are crucial things that concern my future..

few months back, it is as if i wanted to go home the soonest possible time i can..

i was crying my heart out to my roommate when she was consoling me with the thought that the seven months left for us to wait is not that long...during that time i screamed with all my heart out with this ...."BUT SEVEN MONTHS IS SO LOOOOOOOOOOOOONNGGG!!!"

funny indeed to think about that instance when i was acting like a kid, crying so hard and desperately for during that time homesickness was truly unbearable for me!

indeed, come to think of it, seven months is surely a long time for me. though a lot of people will contend that these days, time flies. oh well at some point i agree to that..i sometimes get to catch myself saying such..

so now, we only have two months left since the time i had that burst of emotions. and those five months that had passed changed so many things about me, about my life.

i can hardly believe that last week, when everyone was jotting the final schedule of departure for philippines, i was the only one who did not write any date for i have made up my mind to stay..

actually the ticket is free and so i do not have to worry on how to go home but on the practical side, i chose not to for i do not want to be bothered by the thought on how to come back here to finish and pursue some things that will surely be of essential part in my life in the near future..

i chose to continue studying here..

opportunities are coming and they are too favorable for me to resist

i am hitting the iron while it is hot!

surely i miss my family

i miss my friends too

i miss those responsibilities given to me back home

i also miss our native food

inasmuch as i want to go back home, i cannot for the time-being

i guess i have matured enough to apply the art of weighing the practicality of things..

i guess i am just confident enough that no matter how long will i stay here, those people i love and love me will constantly be there supporting whatever endeavor i chose and will choose..

i guess i trust and i believe enough that God will unceasingly bless those people i care for back home and also unceasingly look after me here

i guess i am hopeful enough that this decision will make me a better individual who is not only good for herself but for others.



clouds are still surely in my thoughts

come to think of it, no one is certain of what the future holds

right now, i am continuously discerning

i am not afraid to commit mistakes for we are all bound to do so..

what i am doing right now is psyching up myself to believe in what decision i have arrived into..

i can do this!

i can make this through!

Almighty, hear my prayers! :)