Monday, October 29, 2007

PPS

Encountered the story of pontius pilate in one of the bible readings during the observance of the holy week sometime in my elementary years.

he was the governor when jesus was sentenced to death through cucifixion. what was interesting about pontius pilate was that he passed the blame to the people, who have chosen barnabas to be freed instead of jesus. pontius pilate washed his hands from the decision of persecuting jesus. it's as if he is not at any reason responsible to the lot of jesus.

so here goes now my reason for coming up with the pontius pilate syndrome in my context.

i have learned that we are all capable of exhibiting the pontius pilate syndrome.

actually i want to contend that we innately have it.

there are points in our lives that we wanted to play safe,

that we don't want be responsible of our plans/desires/intentions/ or actions

we usually invite others to make decisions on our behalf,

not because we trust them so much to decide what is the best for us but most of the time we just want to have somebody to blame if things did not work out well as what we have thought it will be.

we do not want to think that we have brought our own ruin that is why we unconsciously utilize some strategies to save ourselves at the expense of others.

pontius pilate syndrome (pps) comes in different forms.

there are those who are fully aware of what they are doing. they intentionally pass the blame to others or another way to clean their name is to employ occasional memory gap or the other is selective alzheimer's disease.. we just recall those memories that might be of help to us or worse, we try to dig those false memories and assert it with all might for our own defense..

i have encountered a couple of people who are consistently exhibiting their "PPS". they are way too rude to step on others just to feel better. and they are way too naive to feel what pain or insult they have inflicted others. they are way too closed-minded not to see the possibilities outside their personal box..they are way too human to be dominated by their too selfish motives. and they are way too cunning to always find a way out of the loopholes they've created.

i guess.. i am now familiar with the characteristics of people with full-fledged pontius pilate syndrome..

this time i'll be clever in getting along with them..

SpotLight

We humans are in need of recognition..

from the day we were born we are already struggling to be recognize by others..

it is but actually normal to have that need..(need nga eh)

we have our own spotlights

some are good at this and yet some are good at that.

we cannot be excellent at all things

but i firmly believe that each one is excellent in something!

~~~spotlight!

whew!

with my experiences so far, i reckoned that there are really people who just want to take the spotlight for their own happiness and motives.

vicarious learning taught me that there are some who cannot just be fully happy for others' triumphs!

yes, wanting attention for one to be happy is just okay

but if you are already employing measures to intentionally hurt other people; making them feel that you are far way better than them is a different story.

life indeed is so dynamic in its diversity and so it applies to us-humans.

we have our own spotlights, we need not get those owned by others.

each has his/her own time to shine.

if you had already yours... give way.

that is too loony of you to go beyond what is alloted for you.

if you have not had yours... be patient.

surely you will have your time.

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action speaks louder than words,

even if you flatter or praise;

one is not that naive and stupid not to realize whether what you utter is true or not..

be profoundly happy for others so that by the time you will rejoice for your success, you will have friends who will genuinely celebrate with you! :)

Justify

we utter words that we normally do not know what they really mean..

okay, we claim that we know those words but we don't exactly know what are its impact on the one who is receiving those.

if there is something that we should guard about ourselves, i believe those are the words that we throw away

talking, if not the easiest thing to do in this world, is surely one of the effortless acts we usually perform. it is as easy as one..two..three.. easy and simple as it may seem, they blow that can be brought by wrong words are as piercing as a well-sharpened sword and blasting as that of nuclear bomb or shall i say even worse than those described.

we cannot just outrightly say to the person "i hate you!" or ""i am annoyed by you!" or "i like you!" or "i love you" with no apparent reason. everything has reasons! i don't need to expound on that.

for saying "i love you or i like you to the person" without elaborating what you said is not that hard to fathom actually..one can just infer that there is something in him/her that is too damn good to be noticed by others.

however in the case of saying "i am annoyed by you" or "i hate you" without any explicitly stated reason is something i feel very stupid!one can hardly guess what is in him/her that made the other party felt bad or annoyed about.

there are some things that can be understood in a blink of an eye and there are those that need explanation.

now if we cannot justify the words we have spoken, then it might be true that the issue is within us.

some people try to lead a peaceful life,

surely everyone wants to live a happy life.

sadly, some people for no apparent reason just want their way onto things. and they claim that they are the ones who are in the aggrieved party. now, let me ask you: is it justifiable?

Saturday, September 15, 2007

I Finally Got Over You

i feel like crying now because i cannot contain the joy i feel inside!

whew!! i never thought that moving on can this be excruciating and fulfilling at the same time.

i am abounded with bliss, now that i have eventually accepted the fact that there are just some things that are not meant to be..

we risk. we love. we feel happy. we are content.

we are hurt. we cry. we move on.

and after quite sometime, we risk again to love..

basically that is what loving is; it's a cycle.

not all the people we love reflect what we feel for them,

there are instances that no matter how we pray for the person to be a part of our life, they cannot just be so.

for the paths we take are far way different or worse, completely opposite.

nevertheless, the beauty of it is- we loved and we hoped..

if it is not the person we long for to be with, surely there is someone better meant for us.

living and loving do not end when a sad lot happens, rather it continues its pursuit..maybe next time it'll be way better than we expect.



i have loved and i've grown happy with it but i have realized that he is not the one for me. he just dropped by my life to teach me salient points in the aspect of love.

i never thought that life is a lot better being friends with him.

now, i can just be me. no pretension or no disguise.

to the guy i have liked and loved recently, thank you for teaching me lessons which i can benefit from for life.

you taught me that there are just some things that are not meant to be realized.

you taught me to accept things and hope for the best next time around.

you taught me to appreciate.

you taught me to admit to myself that i am capable of loving a person even if he does not entirely fit with the standards i set.



will i forget you?

surely not! :)

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Cultural Differences?


the world has 194 countries.

from which spring various countries, nations, people,cultures.

the people of the world were too sensitive and intelligent enough to come up with a universal language and basic rights and laws to combat the chaos that the disparities among us will possibly bring.

i am glad they thought of that.

but i'll be more glad if people from all the countries in the world will appreciate and apply the importance of which.

in the language aspect, i am not saying that they really have to learn english even if it is against there will. i know there are a lot of people who are not that open to learn the universal language because they have their bias to their language. and one thing more, some do not feel the need learn such.

good thing, in the philippines; as early as kindergarten days, we were taught how to speak the universal language. that worked really on my advantage.

so i'll let the issue of learning english pass. people do have their right to decline on such if they do not feel like doing it.



ok, the meat of the matter is about how we should view the basic rights that govern us all.

i have been in korea for almost 6 months now and i have many encounters which always lead me to raise the question: "cultural differences?"

abroad, some things will never fall into the same manner you experienced it wayback in your country

things from one place to another differs, including the people's belief and ideals.

we may be different on how we get things done, how we address issues, how we tackle tasks and how we respond to complaints..

but

one thing holds true~~~once we talk about human rights, it is the same set of rights known anywhere.

you do not need a book,a computer or a sage to check whether you stepped into others' rights.

you can definitely feel it, oh well that is if you are not that too naive. or evenso you are naive, there will always be a way that the basic rights will get into your nerves. each one is aware of the basic rights. it is our personal yearning that others will give due respect to it.

what i want to air out is.. this phrase "cultural differences" cannot always answer to the confusions brought by diversity, it cannot be used to clean one's hands from overlooking others' rights.

it's a lame excuse on an issue..especially if the issue is, as what i have said- about bypassing the rights of other people of the other culture.

whatta heck!!! why always say that to us???!!!???!!!

basic rights wherever you go are the same despite of the race you belong or what kind language you speak.

it is just so disappointing to note that some people are taking too much advantage of that phrase.

going to another country is surely no joke.

you will adjust to their culture and the kind of people there are.

it is more disapponting or shall i say distressing when you experience the agony of trying to figure out their track of mind and their actions. and in return, they do not give damn effort to understand yours..

you get burned out trying to understand the unfathomable.

you'll realize later on that~~ you are then too naive to give home in understanding them because you have already exhausted all the possible means and efforts that needed to be done.

sometimes, i wanted to think that it is better to be ignorant on what is right from what is wrong..

sometimes, it pays to be dumb about your rights so that you will not get hurt or pissed off when those were bypassed.

but what can i do, i am knowledgeable about my rights?!?!

i cannot help but to assert and fight for it eventhough i am put into the hotseat.

my consolation is~~~at least after all this thorny journey, i'll reach the end happy or joyful shall i say, for i just did not let others stepped on my rights without even saying a thing to them.

i already started to fight for my rights. come what may, wherever this will lead me, i'll have peace of mind.

i will never ever regret the day i decided to assert for what i believe is upright.

"our anger and frustrations come in various packages. inasmuch as i want to keep mine, i just simply cannot. once provoked, you'll realize how foul the package i got"

"you'll dread the day you annoyed me"

Monday, August 27, 2007

26 Things I Hate About Myself

these are the things or i'd better say attitudes that i do not like about myself.

1. i am a procrastinator. if there are chances to delay things, i usually resort to it. i hate pali-pali system (koreans way of doing things). as much as possible i do not want to rush things. i am taking my sweet time on what i am up to.

2. i am talkative, noisy, loud or whatever and however you make call it. once i talk there is no stopping.. i always take the floor from others.. it's as if i never had the chance to speak or talk before.. which actually isn't true.. since i was young~~~i have been so bubbly or shall i say.. terribly loud!!

3. i am scatter-brained. i cannot simply organize my thoughts. it gets to annoying sometimes to listen to me when you do not know what i am trying to point out.. i mean, what's the point malou?

4.i am too idealistic. i live with the ideal. most of the time, it drives me frustrated. i know, but i cannot simply compromise what i believe should be done.

5. i am closed-minded at times. once i believe that what i am asserting is right, i don't have time to listen to what others are saying.

6. i fret too much over nothing. i am taking things seriously when i should not be in the first place.

7. i do not know how to listen.. maybe simply because i talk much.

8. i am terribly mean when provoked. first few offenses on me, i'll understand...the next time around, expect the worst from me.

9. i usually give the benefit of the doubt to others, thereby giving most of the people a chance to cheat on me.

10. i always think that all the people are innately good, well infact, some are really not! i continue to bank on this and i continue to get disappointed on the realities that are unfolding everyday.

11. i am assuming. i get to give color to what is supposed to be a black and white act. you know it!!needless to explain.

12. i have self-inflicted pressures. i don't have to do this or that actually, but i just program in my mind that i have to do it. in psychology--we call it irtrational thoughts. :)

13. i am a cry baby. i cry hard!

14. i am also naive when i am already fed up and stressed with so many things.. i care not anymore on what others are feeling or showing.

15. i am inferior. i feel that i'll never be good enough compared to others.

16. i am impulsive buyer, an extravagant. when i feel spending, shocks! i just simply spend without considering what lies ahead on rainy days.

17. i am not organize when it come to my things. what a messy place i got.

18. i have so many unreasonalbe guilt feelings. when i see people who are on the streets or those people who are in need on tv, i feel guilty. it's as if i have the responsibility on them. oh well, we have responsibilities to others but not the responsibility to solve their problems or lot in life.

19. i am sleepyhead. i'd rather sleep than do productive things.

20. when i read the book, i am compelled to look at the last few pages so that i'd know the ending. in short, i have also issue about patience.

21. i am pretentious. even if you hurt me, even if i do not like you..i'll act as if we are really great friends!!! oh well, shall i say-i am just being civil?

22. i am a liar. even if i am not ok, i'd say i am! sometimes, i am not transparent of what i really feel within. just not to bother other people (as if they care) :) bitter?

23. i am too harsh and hard on myself. even me cannot just get it.

24. i easily forget other people's names.whew!! i really feel embarrassedon occassions when people would say hi to me and i do not even know their names.

25. i exaggerate and sensationalize things. simple things are packaged in more colorful way.

26. i am not appreciative of the kind of person i am. just look what have i done now.. coming up with a blog that speaks my bad side than keeping note of what's good in me. now with a long list of "attitudes i don't like about myself", i am asking myself now..is there good left about me? :)

God bless me and everybody!!

worry not, i am resolved to the fact that everyone has something good to contribute in this world, regardless of how small or big it may be..

i am one of that "everyone"..ergo, i have something good to offer to this world.

afterall, i am a good girl. i was brought up to be that way. and a number can attest to that..ok, that's my point :)

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Kids



it's been almost a month now that i have been exposed in-depth with children who are studying..

before, i just deal with kids for quite a short time..most of which, i see them really enjoying, so carefree, energetic and the like..

however, this experience i have lately, exposed me to their other side..other side which is not that so foreign idea to me..i used to encounter these behaviors in books and some in real passing encounters with them..

when i get to see kids, it seems that i am giggling inside because there are just something distict in them that drives me to be like that!!! actually i cannot fathom why..hehehe

so here it goes, my experience now is like changing a bit my fondness in them..

these days, there are times when i just want to yell at them so that they will pay attention with me..

i just want but i really don't..

ok, sometimes my voice gets to be a liitle bit louder but definitely i do not yell.. am i defensive?

i know that their attention span towards things is so limited, so short!

and inasmuch as i want to understand it, i just cannot always think about it as my reason not to impress on them things that they ought to know.. in my case, the lessons we have this summer vacation..(yeah, it is summer vacation here now)

i am their teacher and i ought to teach them.. i am pressured by the expectations of those who hired me..

but come to think of it~~~ what if they are not interested? will i force them to learn? i do not believe in the learning founded by force.. learning is an option and it is always better if it is done out of one's freewill..

at the back of my mind, when kids want to play--let them be.

do not steal their childhood from them.. they are too young to be pressured but what society expects to be good.. they really don't have to be brilliant, they just need to learn how to use their common sense..the most important thing is-they should learn how to be practical thinkers..you see, society became chaotic because of too many brilliant and impractical people..

gee!!! kids, kids, kids..

they are mild yet stubborn,

they are enthusiastic yet easily gets bored

they are innocent yet crazy

they are a bunch of ironic pretty worth-noticing gifts from heaven!:)

Pot of Gold In Abroad

hmmmmmmm..

it was only then when i am already here abroad that i realized the true lot of most of the OFW's

life abroad is never easy than what others have thought it to be

one thing i dislike about us wayback home is the attitude of being demanding and demanding and demanding!

that is what we are!!!

that is how we act!!!

it's as if that when an immediate family member or a relative of ours had gone abroad, they're turned into an instant genies from where we unceasingly ask our flooding favors..like: to buy us with this or to send us with that or to deposit money of this much!!!

i feel for those OFW's whose families in the philippines do no have anything to do but to extravagantly spend what they are earning here.. salary here is surely relatively higher than what's earned in the country but it does not mean that the nature of work here is easier!!

to whom more is given more is expected and even worse is, more risks are involved..i often hear from announcements after mass, stories of fellow filipino's accidents.. some lost their fingers because of the machine they operate/handle in the factory and some even got insane..

just imagine life being far from family? the opportunity cost seemed to be alluring but it is not always the case..

i have also known some others who intentionally miss one of their meals in a day just to save for their family back home..some even say that their family still clamor with the amount they send in the philippines! again can you imagine that?!!!???



i did not go out abroad to work unlike others,

i am here to study..

these things i have shared may not be the exact experiences i have here but i bet i can relate to some of which..

i am deeply thankful for the family i have..

so far they are not demanding (oh well, they knew i'll study here) :)

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i can relate to the stuggles of homesickness and being away from the comforts of our home and of that so-called family within reach..

i am also skipping some meals..because i have to save for the possible rainy days..my family is not that easy to bother, or maybe it is just me who is thinking that way.. well, i do not want to bother them, that is the very reason why everytime i am asked by my parents "are you ok?", i've got a consistent answer.."yes, i am ok", even the fact is.. i am not.:'(

and i am so damn tired of those people who think that we are leading a great life because we are basically in abroad!!! who said so? ok, i cannot and i am not in the position to generalize but most likely it is not true!!

that is maybe one notion or stereotyoe we have to change..

life abroad is not that rewarding in the truest sense of the word..you are away with your family, and it is so hard to long for them almost everyday..again, it depends on one's values and priorities..

actually the place does not matter but your perspective and choices do!! so wherever you are in the philippines, you can make things happen.. money, if that is what you are after for is not only abroad..actually we have it there..

and finally my point is, especially to those people who are exhausting much (materially/financially) from those loved ones who are abroad..may you guys learn how to tone down with your demands!!! give them a break even for once..they are also humans like you who feel tired and who deserve to be happy..

kudos ofw's!!! :)

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Golden Rule I Know

respect begets respect..
basically life is how you make it..
life is how you deal with it..
life is good to those who are good to it..

whatever you give, you will receive..
it may not be in the exact package but definitely something will come back to you after giving out something..


if you show rudeness.. rudeness in its other form will come to you..
some people are expecting so much from others...
they have that complete idea on how should people act for them..
shocks! they even failed to give damn time to iron things out concerning themselves..

i am not a preacher here and mind you, i do not aspire to be one..
i am not acting like too sure here..
but based on how i see what is upright and what is not..
i bet one should first start that "change" within himself before minding others' business..

some are just too narrow-minded to just dwell in their shallow "ideals"...
some are too sure of themselves, thinking that they are the only persons in the world who make sense..

excuse me.. may i.. oh well, may i just tell you... even the most brilliant person in the world does not make sense sometimes..

God bless!

adios!

Teardrop

The last teardrop was shed for the person i have been fond of lately...
up until now, i still say that i am not inlove with him...
hey i just like him..
it will truly be crazy to blame him for all that i feel right now...
i feel pain... i am hurt
but i clearly know that it is because i chose this feeling..
from the very start, i know i will take risks in this pursuit for love
i have finally accepted that he is not into me
he is just sweet..extermely sweet maybe...
he is just kind and caring..
i should not have gotten myself to dream on beyond his mundane acts
ouch!!! ouch!!! ouch!!!



now i find myself hurting..
i now ask myself a very simple question.. "why did you hope?"
i have hoped simply because i like the person..
you see, i so look forward to build beautiful days with him...
when you have found reasons in liking or loving the person--those are really difficult to get rid from your system..
again, this is another sad lot in my love life..hahaha
when will the right stroke of blessing in my lovelife come?


as what my friend said...the guy must be damn lucky because in a way i shed some tears for him..
even me cannot believe that i have shed tears for a man..
it is not very "malou"
i remember wayback high school, i told my classmates not to shed even a single tear for a guy..
it will be such a shame on our part..
look who is talking??? i eventually did!!!hahaha
if shedding tears will be a way to wash away the hurts i feel within, i will gladly do it all over again..
if through crying i can move on, i wish i'll have a day intended for it
if those teardrops i shed signified the end of my chapter with him, i will shout to the world with elation that i cried for him..
love comes..love goes..
if it is not him..it might be someone else..
the journey in finding the right man continues..
i must be excited then..

for dols:
i might have fallen inlove with you..
yes, i might just have..
thanks for adding color to my life..
wherever you are.. i wish you well, really wish you well..

:')

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Narcissism

"humans are basically selfish"

whoever thinks that he is not selfish, please stand up and shout to this whole wide world that you are not so..

you see, i firmly believe that everyone is selfish..

whether we like to admit it or not--- we are narcissist..

no one is really living his life for the happiness of others..

one way or another the person looks for his personal benefit over the things he is doing..

if the person claims that he is doing something for others and not for himself..well, at some point, i can very well conclude that he keeps on doing all those things because he too feels happy and good about it!!! therefore, he is still after for his own welfare/happiness..

being selfish is innate to man..

actually i do not regard it as a negative..

from the womb of our mothers we were trained to look after ourselves.. we fought our own battles alone..we never thought of anyone that time except for ourselves..and that all started our constant devotion to our very selves!

whew!!!

but the basic point i want to stress out is---though selfish nature of man is but innate and for me, it is definitely normal..

selfishness has also its extent and types..

i think being selfish does not require us to be mean to others..

it does not compel us to pull others down..

it basically teaches us to look for our personal concerns and battles first before attending to others'..

selfishness becomes a pain in the ass to others if we are trying to penetrate their comfort zones..

it is not right anymore to get into others' nerves just to get your way to everything..

selfishness does not do good anymore if you do not respect others' own distinct ways..



i am a selfish person because i am obviously human..

it is part of my nature..

but i will never ever use that as an excuse to bypass others' rights..

and inasmuch as i want to be happy, i also consider others when i make decision for my personal happiness..

beacuse i simply believe that being selfish do not really require to step on others..



so guys, let's express our being selfish in how should a well-educated and civilized person should be doing.. :)



count me in!!!hahaha

Monday, June 18, 2007

I cry for those who cannot cry for themselves

one of the worst feelings is to be judged before you have shown who you truly are..
humans are innately judgmental..
when we do not anything, say we are bored with the routines of our lives--we take our sweet time to find objects of that ill nature..
weird that even if we know that it is not good.. we still keep on posing our bias and prejudice to others..
might it be that judging others, especially thinking and talking bad about them is pleasurable?!?

waaaaah!
sounds crazy!!!
i do not exactly know the reasons..
i am just backed with assumptions..
but i have come to live by the thought that i will not judge anybody unless i have substantial facts and enough encounter with that person..
i cry for those who cannot cry for themselves..

i take pity on those gals who do not have anything to do but to judge others!
i feel for those who are&were judged...
for those who pose judgments to others...why not take time to evaluate yourselves!!!???!!!
life's too promising and beautiful to accommodate loony and mean people like you!

God bless you!

Who is Up for Competition

i think everyone has been subject to this so-called competition..

i can remember vividly that when i was in elementary i have believed that only thru' winning you will be able to prove your worth..

i have gained a number of friends because one way or another i have excelled in the class and the other things i engaged to (do i sound arrogant? i do not mean that..hehe)

and i have come to realize.. well i can only speak for myself..haha

of course!!! this is my personal experience you know...

i have come to realize that.. the more i struggle to prove myself..

i am inflicting pressures and axieties to myself..

it did not do good actually..

as i grow in age, in weight or in height maybe.. i fortunately grow mature.. may perspective in life has changed drastically for the better..

gone are those days which i act immaturely just to be the best..

gone are those days that i cry when i get mistakes in the quiz..

gone are those days that i cannot sleep getting 83!!!

know why?

because i have fully accepted that: there are a lot of people who are better off than me and undoubtedly i cannot contend to that fact!

competition?

i am not for it..

oh well, maybe i am still up to it.. but this time.. i am competing for myself.. showing who really "malou" is within..

i had a fair share or shall i say i had enough of that so-called competition!!! give me a break..

i have proven myself more than once and i think it's enough!!!

i am so secured of who i am and i am happy on how God has blessed my life.. why would i find a way to make my life miserable by exerting so much effort just to get ahead of others??!!??

right now, i feel that i am ahead of million others because God has been generous to me..

as i see others competing their way up to class..

i just grin and mutter: "been there, done that"..."good luck!"

why am i posting this?

i was just astonished that a month ago, we were told that we were competing in the class..

hehe.. i just smiled coz' i never thought that there was competition existing in class!!!??? it did not cross my mind until it was brought up..

must it be that thinkers are doers??!!??

self-evaluation..

stop projecting your agenda to others..

mwaaaaahugsss!

whew!

feels good to air this out!

finaaaalllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy i am free!!!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Tribute to Mama

"i envy those people who can drink coffee anytime they feel like drinking,
but i envy more those people who are in the comforts of having their moms around"
i very well know that i am kinda' allergic to coffee
just it's aroma drives me to headache
i can hardly figure out what such unfortunate luck developed in me..
the fast-rising cafe' industry really can't get even a single cent profit from me!
recently we had a fieldtrip to Sasang-gu, a district office here in korea
there were generous people who wanted to treat us for a drink.
without any hesitation i let myself be counted in the tally of those who will avail the free drink..
not much to my surprise, iced coffee was served.
what's astonishing is the concentrated, strong taste of the drink!
i was not the only one who felt something unusual drinking it.
with the knowledge that i am reacting not so well when i drink coffee, i made it a point to just sip a little from the whole thing and i gave it to a friend who happens to be a coffee lover.

my physical and emotional turmoil started when we were on our way to the university, i felt dizzy and i really want to throw up if i had only the chance to do so. glad i contained the feeling and went back to our so-called "HQ" and stayed there to get some rest..

i tried to overcome it through the "mind over matter" therapy but it did not work..
more than the physical complaints,
i have other concerns that cannot be solved by the said strategy.
i really have to acknowledge that i have emptiness within

that no medicine can cure,
i need my mama’s presence;
her carress.
i have recalled that whenever i feel something unusual, she is always there to comfort me.
she always go an extra mile to make things easy for me.
i never realized how important she is to me until i was really far away from her.
now, whenever i feel like hugging or kissing her,
i cannot simply do that for the reason that she is miles away from me.
i miss my mom so much..
yes, i miss my other family members but i miss my mom the most!

mama,
happy mother's day!
i cannot thank God enough for you!
i love you!

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Unsupressed thoughts and Feelings

hehehe.. it's kinda funny when i read kimee's e-mail all the way from belgium where she is at right now and for the next few days..

you see she is up to something important there.. she is marketing the doy pack bags to the belgians and other europeans too.. through this project funded by an NGO in Belgium, we get to help our unemployed kababayans to earn for a living..

last february, during our midterm exams, i went to manila to accompany two belgians-cloe and simon to KILUS Foundation. There, we were able to get some tips how to make such wonderful bags out of recycled materials-mainly doy packs..

we jotted salient ideas that would be of help in the realization of the planned livelihood for the unemployed mothers in bacolod.. we got everything that we thought will be of help to the program..

we bought some bags to serve as prototype.. i bought one for myself too.. i recalled that during that time, i'll be in short of money if i'll buy it.. still i made a way to get it!

glad i bought it!

when we reached bacolod, i flaunted my new bag.. almost everybody expressed that they really like the bag.. and so that was the start of everything..

balayan, an institutional organization in the university borrowed my bag and made it a prototype for the bags that will be sent to belgium.. they named it-"malou bag"

before it's kinda astonishing and quite chaka to name it as malou bag?

huwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttt? why that name?

later on i get to encounter that bag's name everytime cloe updates us about the orders in belgium..

whew! now, another email sent to me containing the name malou in the bag.. now, i think it is cool! never thought that it will be a hit there..

come to think of it.. it all started because i was able to pick a nice, simple bag that have undeniably drawn others eyes and interest on it..

good taste indeed! hahaha..i never felt so affirmed of my taste on fashion until i had this so called "malou bag".



thanks cloe for insisting to call the bag with my name..

thanks CUDettes..



guys, it's all in the name... i mean the name "bag" hahaha



malou is just malou..

there are a lot of malou-s in this world! and my name is ma.lourdes anyway.. but i know that it was named after me.. i know..hehehe



coz you see there is sole "malou" in the CUD Project.

Kilus Foundation, salamat at nadisplay nyo po ang isang magandang bag sa medyo mura na presyo..

waaah!



p.s.

i'm sorry kung ka-ugok sa akon ha..

haappy lang gid ko, promise.. inta lang gid ko ya noh?!

regards to all!

mwwwwwwwaaaaaaahhhh!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Cherry Blossoms

How magnificent it is to see such grandeur of mother nature!
great are the hands of the one who made it!
grrrrrrraaaaabbbbbbbbeeeeee!!! wow galing! ^^
it is such a relieving and uplifting feeling to experience walking around with cherry blossom petals falling everywhere..
when the wind starts to caress its gorgeous petals, the one which holds it immediately let go and let the wind take those tiny petals to places..
the cherry blossom blooms but it does not stay forever.
such eyecandy should stay forever and vanish not.
but God is so wise not to permit such permanence.
i bet in times of fall where barren branches are left, a realization comes -
that next time around when the flowers will bloom,
the branches and sepals will tighten their grip to the petals.
never letting it go for the tree had already known how essential it is to its existence.
and the next time it blooms,it will be much appreciated than that of the previous spring!