Current Realities

In life, we get to come across several realities. Well it is basically up to us whether we accept it as our reality or not. In my case, I am pretty much of mixed emotions as far as the new realities I am into are concerned. One thing I have to learn I guess is, realities remain to be realities and I cannot be in control of the whole pace it’ll will heed however I am here, in constant control of whatever I should feel with all these things and changes happening around me.

I might be in perpetual awe of the sudden changes that are happening around but I get to ponder that it wouldn’t really bother me much or let’s say, affect me unless I permit it to permeate my very own system.

It has been a cliché that change is the only constant in this world. Well it sure is. And now I am beset with yet another two major changes that I have now accepted to be fitting to call “realities”. First, the apartment reality which was prompted by my go-back-to-school-reality. If I try to assess it, I won’t be able to justify my moving out to a new space hadn’t I made a decision to be back to school again.

It’s silly of me to make use of the “ample” time I have now in choosing to study something I am not sure I wanted in the first place. The main reason I got myself enrolled is, I have much time after work, so many unjustified leisure time I have been enjoying in the past year. Plus, I cannot afford to just level up in work experience and haven’t leveled up my credentials in education. I cannot believe this, now I am eating up all my words in the past. I said I do not want to be entrapped with this silliness of the world that after getting a bachelor’s degree, one “should” get masters if not m.b.a then grab the doctorate A.S.A.P. when before it is just an option for the diligent ones who do not have anything to do but to study, now it is unfortunately making its way to the “NEEDS LIST”. Ugh!

Going back to my recent move of getting law, let me lay my justifications. Well, you can actually end it here if you are not interested to know.^^

Time. I have much of it now and I want to spend it productively by enduring painstakingly the bulk of cases, articles, notes, etc. I will study on starting Monday.

The next one sounds absurd but painfully true. If I take masters and successfully graduate from it, people then will most likely ask where I have gotten my degree. Whereas, if I take up law and be fortunate to succeed in the bar exam, I become a lawyer right away and get to attach this pronounced ATTY., right before my name. Needless to explain where I have studied law, all they care and know is,
I am a lawyer. As to what school you’ve been taught, that doesn’t matter anymore; the important thing is I passed the bar. As early as now, I am actually in jitters with that bar exam they are saying. I get to ask myself now, what are my chances to pass the bar, my reflex answer for it is, slim.

Third, people have opened the idea of me getting masters degree in my field instead, psychology. Well, sadly I am still in love with my work and I cannot afford to leave to get it somewhere outside my box, especially with the bitter fact that I will be sending myself to school. I will continue to be in love with my work until I get a very good scholarship abroad.:)

The university offers only guidance and counseling as master’s degree in Psychology. Can you imagine me acting as guidance counselor later on? If you can’t, let me give you the picture I have imagined I would be. Yes, I would still be that very bubbly, blah..blah..blah..person who will assert what she thinks is the right thing to do in a given situation not minding to give a pause, the main goal is…convey the point even how many times it will take going around the bush. haha see? And you want to know what will most likely happen to my poor counselee? Chances are, he will commit suicide because all the counseling time has been consumed solely by myself…instead of him being listened to, it’s the opposite…haha!

I want to be of service to others and with the knowledge I have of my personality, it would be insensitive of me to push myself to guidance and counseling.

Well the last and the best reason why I heeded to take law is the fact that I want to engage in a work that is inclined to social/community developments. So I thought that I will be able to carry that objective of helping others efficiently and effectively by knowing the people’s rights. amen to that.

I could have all the time in the world to justify my recent moves but I guess I need not do that. I just realized that the reason why I am doing this is the fact that I need an outlet, an outlet that when I dare to read all over again, somewhat I would be relieved, making myself believe that after all, I picked and heed on to the right choices. And the realities I am into are but fitting for me to go through.

siquijor, i just love!