On Break Ups

Four years ago, I was almost drowned in pain.
I can finally relate to what they call breakup blues.
Never ending questions haunted me, "why did it have to end?".
Regrets and resentments were rolled into tears, gushing on my face.

At that time, it may seemingly be close to "the end of my world",
I made my relationship as my world for a time, that's why.
Countless of tissues were consumed; I even break down on the floor.
How can a relationship that seemed so perfect go wrong?

That time, my only consolation was what my friend's mom shared to her,
"a breakup is always a blessing from God for he saved you from the wrong one."
I held on it like a diamond, something very precious.
That thought sustained me to get through it all.

Moving on is a choice and at one's desired pace.
I have tried moving on, but I did not try hard enough.
I was a stalker for a long time.
I have continuously hoped for another chance for the both of us.

Pathetic? Yes! I affirm.
Now that I am sane and have fully moved on from my first relationship, I cannot help but to laugh.
True, some things can only be worth laughing at after quite a time, and I did prove that one!
I am relieved that I went through it, the pain and everything that goes with the breakup were all worth it.


For the past days, a number of friends shared to me their breakup stories;
seems like breakup season, huh?
There is something about breakups that I can very well relate to,
We might have called it quits for different, and uniquely disappointing reasons, but one thing holds true...
It's never easy to let go and say "not anymore" to the one you have loved deeply before.



If we feed ourselves with the happy memories we have shared, we can never fully move on.
If we hold it close to our hearts, it will never be easy to let go.
In times like this, it pays to go back to the reason why we even chose to end it.
Thinking about it might be a reason enough to fimly stand by to the decision we made.

A breakup is always painful to those who have invested in the relationship.
We invest our time, efforts, emotions; we invested our life into it.
However, the illusion of having lost a part of ourselves, does not at all mitigate the pain we bear.
Instead, we make things worse and more painful to endure.

A breakup is an invitation to become either better or bitter,
and I hope we come to senses to always choose the former.
If things did not work, you are making yourself vulnerable to possible hurts if you push it harder.
If things do not work, they simply do not.
If they do not work now, what are the chances that they will work in the future?
If mistakes were made and you want to give another chance, it's up to you - your shot, your call!
We know ourselves better, we have an idea of the threshold we have for pain,
and I hope we dare not subject ourselves to the pain we can hardly bear.

What you can stand, others might not.
Your choices give the world an idea how strong, weak, shrewd or stupid you are.
Our worth is more than a breakup,
It's not the end of the world for one who has just broken up,
Believe me, you'll get by, you'll get through this.
It's just that, pain will not go away in a snap.
Feel what you ought to feel right now.
Cry if you must and if you really love yourself,
You'd know when you've already shed too much emotions over something not meant to last.

Go, pick up yourself and get a great, grand life you deserve! :)