Saturday, July 28, 2007

Golden Rule I Know

respect begets respect..
basically life is how you make it..
life is how you deal with it..
life is good to those who are good to it..

whatever you give, you will receive..
it may not be in the exact package but definitely something will come back to you after giving out something..


if you show rudeness.. rudeness in its other form will come to you..
some people are expecting so much from others...
they have that complete idea on how should people act for them..
shocks! they even failed to give damn time to iron things out concerning themselves..

i am not a preacher here and mind you, i do not aspire to be one..
i am not acting like too sure here..
but based on how i see what is upright and what is not..
i bet one should first start that "change" within himself before minding others' business..

some are just too narrow-minded to just dwell in their shallow "ideals"...
some are too sure of themselves, thinking that they are the only persons in the world who make sense..

excuse me.. may i.. oh well, may i just tell you... even the most brilliant person in the world does not make sense sometimes..

God bless!

adios!

Teardrop

The last teardrop was shed for the person i have been fond of lately...
up until now, i still say that i am not inlove with him...
hey i just like him..
it will truly be crazy to blame him for all that i feel right now...
i feel pain... i am hurt
but i clearly know that it is because i chose this feeling..
from the very start, i know i will take risks in this pursuit for love
i have finally accepted that he is not into me
he is just sweet..extermely sweet maybe...
he is just kind and caring..
i should not have gotten myself to dream on beyond his mundane acts
ouch!!! ouch!!! ouch!!!



now i find myself hurting..
i now ask myself a very simple question.. "why did you hope?"
i have hoped simply because i like the person..
you see, i so look forward to build beautiful days with him...
when you have found reasons in liking or loving the person--those are really difficult to get rid from your system..
again, this is another sad lot in my love life..hahaha
when will the right stroke of blessing in my lovelife come?


as what my friend said...the guy must be damn lucky because in a way i shed some tears for him..
even me cannot believe that i have shed tears for a man..
it is not very "malou"
i remember wayback high school, i told my classmates not to shed even a single tear for a guy..
it will be such a shame on our part..
look who is talking??? i eventually did!!!hahaha
if shedding tears will be a way to wash away the hurts i feel within, i will gladly do it all over again..
if through crying i can move on, i wish i'll have a day intended for it
if those teardrops i shed signified the end of my chapter with him, i will shout to the world with elation that i cried for him..
love comes..love goes..
if it is not him..it might be someone else..
the journey in finding the right man continues..
i must be excited then..

for dols:
i might have fallen inlove with you..
yes, i might just have..
thanks for adding color to my life..
wherever you are.. i wish you well, really wish you well..

:')

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Narcissism

"humans are basically selfish"

whoever thinks that he is not selfish, please stand up and shout to this whole wide world that you are not so..

you see, i firmly believe that everyone is selfish..

whether we like to admit it or not--- we are narcissist..

no one is really living his life for the happiness of others..

one way or another the person looks for his personal benefit over the things he is doing..

if the person claims that he is doing something for others and not for himself..well, at some point, i can very well conclude that he keeps on doing all those things because he too feels happy and good about it!!! therefore, he is still after for his own welfare/happiness..

being selfish is innate to man..

actually i do not regard it as a negative..

from the womb of our mothers we were trained to look after ourselves.. we fought our own battles alone..we never thought of anyone that time except for ourselves..and that all started our constant devotion to our very selves!

whew!!!

but the basic point i want to stress out is---though selfish nature of man is but innate and for me, it is definitely normal..

selfishness has also its extent and types..

i think being selfish does not require us to be mean to others..

it does not compel us to pull others down..

it basically teaches us to look for our personal concerns and battles first before attending to others'..

selfishness becomes a pain in the ass to others if we are trying to penetrate their comfort zones..

it is not right anymore to get into others' nerves just to get your way to everything..

selfishness does not do good anymore if you do not respect others' own distinct ways..



i am a selfish person because i am obviously human..

it is part of my nature..

but i will never ever use that as an excuse to bypass others' rights..

and inasmuch as i want to be happy, i also consider others when i make decision for my personal happiness..

beacuse i simply believe that being selfish do not really require to step on others..



so guys, let's express our being selfish in how should a well-educated and civilized person should be doing.. :)



count me in!!!hahaha

Monday, June 18, 2007

I cry for those who cannot cry for themselves

one of the worst feelings is to be judged before you have shown who you truly are..
humans are innately judgmental..
when we do not anything, say we are bored with the routines of our lives--we take our sweet time to find objects of that ill nature..
weird that even if we know that it is not good.. we still keep on posing our bias and prejudice to others..
might it be that judging others, especially thinking and talking bad about them is pleasurable?!?

waaaaah!
sounds crazy!!!
i do not exactly know the reasons..
i am just backed with assumptions..
but i have come to live by the thought that i will not judge anybody unless i have substantial facts and enough encounter with that person..
i cry for those who cannot cry for themselves..

i take pity on those gals who do not have anything to do but to judge others!
i feel for those who are&were judged...
for those who pose judgments to others...why not take time to evaluate yourselves!!!???!!!
life's too promising and beautiful to accommodate loony and mean people like you!

God bless you!

Who is Up for Competition

i think everyone has been subject to this so-called competition..

i can remember vividly that when i was in elementary i have believed that only thru' winning you will be able to prove your worth..

i have gained a number of friends because one way or another i have excelled in the class and the other things i engaged to (do i sound arrogant? i do not mean that..hehe)

and i have come to realize.. well i can only speak for myself..haha

of course!!! this is my personal experience you know...

i have come to realize that.. the more i struggle to prove myself..

i am inflicting pressures and axieties to myself..

it did not do good actually..

as i grow in age, in weight or in height maybe.. i fortunately grow mature.. may perspective in life has changed drastically for the better..

gone are those days which i act immaturely just to be the best..

gone are those days that i cry when i get mistakes in the quiz..

gone are those days that i cannot sleep getting 83!!!

know why?

because i have fully accepted that: there are a lot of people who are better off than me and undoubtedly i cannot contend to that fact!

competition?

i am not for it..

oh well, maybe i am still up to it.. but this time.. i am competing for myself.. showing who really "malou" is within..

i had a fair share or shall i say i had enough of that so-called competition!!! give me a break..

i have proven myself more than once and i think it's enough!!!

i am so secured of who i am and i am happy on how God has blessed my life.. why would i find a way to make my life miserable by exerting so much effort just to get ahead of others??!!??

right now, i feel that i am ahead of million others because God has been generous to me..

as i see others competing their way up to class..

i just grin and mutter: "been there, done that"..."good luck!"

why am i posting this?

i was just astonished that a month ago, we were told that we were competing in the class..

hehe.. i just smiled coz' i never thought that there was competition existing in class!!!??? it did not cross my mind until it was brought up..

must it be that thinkers are doers??!!??

self-evaluation..

stop projecting your agenda to others..

mwaaaaahugsss!

whew!

feels good to air this out!

finaaaalllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy i am free!!!