Narcissism

"humans are basically selfish"

whoever thinks that he is not selfish, please stand up and shout to this whole wide world that you are not so..

you see, i firmly believe that everyone is selfish..

whether we like to admit it or not--- we are narcissist..

no one is really living his life for the happiness of others..

one way or another the person looks for his personal benefit over the things he is doing..

if the person claims that he is doing something for others and not for himself..well, at some point, i can very well conclude that he keeps on doing all those things because he too feels happy and good about it!!! therefore, he is still after for his own welfare/happiness..

being selfish is innate to man..

actually i do not regard it as a negative..

from the womb of our mothers we were trained to look after ourselves.. we fought our own battles alone..we never thought of anyone that time except for ourselves..and that all started our constant devotion to our very selves!

whew!!!

but the basic point i want to stress out is---though selfish nature of man is but innate and for me, it is definitely normal..

selfishness has also its extent and types..

i think being selfish does not require us to be mean to others..

it does not compel us to pull others down..

it basically teaches us to look for our personal concerns and battles first before attending to others'..

selfishness becomes a pain in the ass to others if we are trying to penetrate their comfort zones..

it is not right anymore to get into others' nerves just to get your way to everything..

selfishness does not do good anymore if you do not respect others' own distinct ways..



i am a selfish person because i am obviously human..

it is part of my nature..

but i will never ever use that as an excuse to bypass others' rights..

and inasmuch as i want to be happy, i also consider others when i make decision for my personal happiness..

beacuse i simply believe that being selfish do not really require to step on others..



so guys, let's express our being selfish in how should a well-educated and civilized person should be doing.. :)



count me in!!!hahaha

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I cry for those who cannot cry for themselves

one of the worst feelings is to be judged before you have shown who you truly are..
humans are innately judgmental..
when we do not anything, say we are bored with the routines of our lives--we take our sweet time to find objects of that ill nature..
weird that even if we know that it is not good.. we still keep on posing our bias and prejudice to others..
might it be that judging others, especially thinking and talking bad about them is pleasurable?!?

waaaaah!
sounds crazy!!!
i do not exactly know the reasons..
i am just backed with assumptions..
but i have come to live by the thought that i will not judge anybody unless i have substantial facts and enough encounter with that person..
i cry for those who cannot cry for themselves..

i take pity on those gals who do not have anything to do but to judge others!
i feel for those who are&were judged...
for those who pose judgments to others...why not take time to evaluate yourselves!!!???!!!
life's too promising and beautiful to accommodate loony and mean people like you!

God bless you!

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Who is Up for Competition

i think everyone has been subject to this so-called competition..

i can remember vividly that when i was in elementary i have believed that only thru' winning you will be able to prove your worth..

i have gained a number of friends because one way or another i have excelled in the class and the other things i engaged to (do i sound arrogant? i do not mean that..hehe)

and i have come to realize.. well i can only speak for myself..haha

of course!!! this is my personal experience you know...

i have come to realize that.. the more i struggle to prove myself..

i am inflicting pressures and axieties to myself..

it did not do good actually..

as i grow in age, in weight or in height maybe.. i fortunately grow mature.. may perspective in life has changed drastically for the better..

gone are those days which i act immaturely just to be the best..

gone are those days that i cry when i get mistakes in the quiz..

gone are those days that i cannot sleep getting 83!!!

know why?

because i have fully accepted that: there are a lot of people who are better off than me and undoubtedly i cannot contend to that fact!

competition?

i am not for it..

oh well, maybe i am still up to it.. but this time.. i am competing for myself.. showing who really "malou" is within..

i had a fair share or shall i say i had enough of that so-called competition!!! give me a break..

i have proven myself more than once and i think it's enough!!!

i am so secured of who i am and i am happy on how God has blessed my life.. why would i find a way to make my life miserable by exerting so much effort just to get ahead of others??!!??

right now, i feel that i am ahead of million others because God has been generous to me..

as i see others competing their way up to class..

i just grin and mutter: "been there, done that"..."good luck!"

why am i posting this?

i was just astonished that a month ago, we were told that we were competing in the class..

hehe.. i just smiled coz' i never thought that there was competition existing in class!!!??? it did not cross my mind until it was brought up..

must it be that thinkers are doers??!!??

self-evaluation..

stop projecting your agenda to others..

mwaaaaahugsss!

whew!

feels good to air this out!

finaaaalllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy i am free!!!

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Tribute to Mama

"i envy those people who can drink coffee anytime they feel like drinking,
but i envy more those people who are in the comforts of having their moms around"
i very well know that i am kinda' allergic to coffee
just it's aroma drives me to headache
i can hardly figure out what such unfortunate luck developed in me..
the fast-rising cafe' industry really can't get even a single cent profit from me!
recently we had a fieldtrip to Sasang-gu, a district office here in korea
there were generous people who wanted to treat us for a drink.
without any hesitation i let myself be counted in the tally of those who will avail the free drink..
not much to my surprise, iced coffee was served.
what's astonishing is the concentrated, strong taste of the drink!
i was not the only one who felt something unusual drinking it.
with the knowledge that i am reacting not so well when i drink coffee, i made it a point to just sip a little from the whole thing and i gave it to a friend who happens to be a coffee lover.

my physical and emotional turmoil started when we were on our way to the university, i felt dizzy and i really want to throw up if i had only the chance to do so. glad i contained the feeling and went back to our so-called "HQ" and stayed there to get some rest..

i tried to overcome it through the "mind over matter" therapy but it did not work..
more than the physical complaints,
i have other concerns that cannot be solved by the said strategy.
i really have to acknowledge that i have emptiness within

that no medicine can cure,
i need my mama’s presence;
her carress.
i have recalled that whenever i feel something unusual, she is always there to comfort me.
she always go an extra mile to make things easy for me.
i never realized how important she is to me until i was really far away from her.
now, whenever i feel like hugging or kissing her,
i cannot simply do that for the reason that she is miles away from me.
i miss my mom so much..
yes, i miss my other family members but i miss my mom the most!

mama,
happy mother's day!
i cannot thank God enough for you!
i love you!

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Unsupressed thoughts and Feelings

hehehe.. it's kinda funny when i read kimee's e-mail all the way from belgium where she is at right now and for the next few days..

you see she is up to something important there.. she is marketing the doy pack bags to the belgians and other europeans too.. through this project funded by an NGO in Belgium, we get to help our unemployed kababayans to earn for a living..

last february, during our midterm exams, i went to manila to accompany two belgians-cloe and simon to KILUS Foundation. There, we were able to get some tips how to make such wonderful bags out of recycled materials-mainly doy packs..

we jotted salient ideas that would be of help in the realization of the planned livelihood for the unemployed mothers in bacolod.. we got everything that we thought will be of help to the program..

we bought some bags to serve as prototype.. i bought one for myself too.. i recalled that during that time, i'll be in short of money if i'll buy it.. still i made a way to get it!

glad i bought it!

when we reached bacolod, i flaunted my new bag.. almost everybody expressed that they really like the bag.. and so that was the start of everything..

balayan, an institutional organization in the university borrowed my bag and made it a prototype for the bags that will be sent to belgium.. they named it-"malou bag"

before it's kinda astonishing and quite chaka to name it as malou bag?

huwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttt? why that name?

later on i get to encounter that bag's name everytime cloe updates us about the orders in belgium..

whew! now, another email sent to me containing the name malou in the bag.. now, i think it is cool! never thought that it will be a hit there..

come to think of it.. it all started because i was able to pick a nice, simple bag that have undeniably drawn others eyes and interest on it..

good taste indeed! hahaha..i never felt so affirmed of my taste on fashion until i had this so called "malou bag".



thanks cloe for insisting to call the bag with my name..

thanks CUDettes..



guys, it's all in the name... i mean the name "bag" hahaha



malou is just malou..

there are a lot of malou-s in this world! and my name is ma.lourdes anyway.. but i know that it was named after me.. i know..hehehe



coz you see there is sole "malou" in the CUD Project.

Kilus Foundation, salamat at nadisplay nyo po ang isang magandang bag sa medyo mura na presyo..

waaah!



p.s.

i'm sorry kung ka-ugok sa akon ha..

haappy lang gid ko, promise.. inta lang gid ko ya noh?!

regards to all!

mwwwwwwwaaaaaaahhhh!

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